First Days at the U
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It’s 9:00 in the morning, mountain time, I have just finished my U.S. National Government class and I’m in the Union waiting for the bookstore to receive their shipment of Mac OS X Snow Leopard discs.
I shall sum up my current attitude about the University of Utah in one sentence. I freaking love it here. That’s a lot to say for just one full week of being a student here and I am quite sure that my attitude will be different when I eventually fall behind on homework, am failing a class, and eating nothing but 59 cent packets of Ramen so that I have enough money for my textbooks next Semester. But allow me to explain why I am enjoying myself so much here after my first week.
The first class I had to show up to on Monday morning was U.S. National Government, a sort of introduction to Political Science. It is taught by what I would have to say in a well weathered gentleman who is the proprietor of a major polling institution here in Salt Lake. He seems to yell his points a lot, and our topics after only 3 hours of class time have included the death of Ted Kennedy, healthcare reform, and the confirmation of Jon Huntsman Jr. as ambassador to China and Gary Herbert taking his place as Governor of Utah.
I have an Business Foundations class taught by a guy who looks like a more portly version of Ben Bernanke, so he must know this money stuff pretty well. We spend the entire class talking about History and Philosophy mostly, subjects that people like Andrew Fastow should probably have been more educated in. Oh yes, we learned about Enron. It’s mentioned in the text under the chapter “How to screw your employees over.”
I have a class entitled Earth Environments where we learn mostly about Al Gore. Just kidding, luckily he hasn’t come up in classroom conservation yet. We have been told we will be learning about the different climates and weather patterns of the world and how humans and animals effect those things. We also have to make a presentation on an environmental subject. I think I’m going to do mine on how the Dutch built the Netherlands from swamps.
And of course, my favorite class has to be my Introduction to Film class. mostly because it takes 3 credits worth of time and counts for 4, but also because we get to sit around and watch movies in a theatre. It’s held in an old single screen movie theatre on Fort Douglas originally built for the recreation of troops stationed there. Seriously, it has a ticket booth out front and everything, it’s a very cool building. I should probably get a picture of it next week and post it to my Flickr page. So far, we have watched and discussed two Alfred Hitchcock films, “Spellbound” and “Notorious.”
I could continue on, but I have Financial Aid issues to sort out so that when I buy my copy of Snow Leopard, I can actually afford it. Wish me luck on that, I’m going to need it.
Interesting Comment
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Today, I received an interesting comment concerning my last post titled “A Year After You.” The person chose to remain Anonymous and as far as I can tell, I do not know this person. There comment goes as follows,
I’m sure it’s not all that bad. A good place to begin the resolution and healing process might be pointing the finger at yourself and figuring out where you’re responsibility lies. Otherwise you run the risk of looking just as stupid to the online world as said person looks to you.
The person is absolutely right, it really isn’t that bad. But on the day I wrote it I was reflecting heavily on my past and the mistakes I made. In no way did I mean to point fingers at other people, especially considering that I don’t believe them to actually exist. However, do I look stupid to the online world? Probably, but it wasn’t that post that caused it. Read my Twitter stream sometime, I make myself out as a fool quite often.
Now, as for the “said person,” like I said, I don’t believe them to exist. I think that as human beings with complex minds, we create fictional people based on the people we meet in real life. Sometimes we can dwell on these fictional people for a long time allowing them to stir emotions in us. I believe it isn’t healthy for anyone to allow this to happen.
That post was about banishing one of these fictional people, some may refer to it as an “inner demon.” It was my promise to myself that I would not allow the demon to have governance over my emotions. I am now attending a new school and living in a new place and meeting new people and making new friends.
Looking back on it, I don’t know if it was wise or not to write that piece and post it here. But, I’m not going to take it down, and I’m not going to just ignore a perfectly legitimate comment like this. I just wanted to make it understood that I was using a metaphor. I can see that I wasn’t clear on that in the post.
Tomorrow I’m going to post about my first week at the U. Should be interesting, a lot of stuff to tell of course.
A Year After You
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Everyday is better, everyday I forget about you. It’s been a year since you pushed yourself onto me. Since you took advantage of my trust and my kindness, since you took me away from the things I believe and the things I value. I did everything for you, everything in my power to make you happy, but it was never enough. I was just a pawn to you, just another way to get the things you wanted.
You are so selfish, you only care about yourself. You don’t care about your family, your religion, or your friends. You only care about getting your own way, getting the things that you want. You don’t care who you have to trample on to get them, no one is as important as you are in your own eyes.
You are such a hypocrite, you feel that you can do no wrong. You criticize everyone around you for the way they think, the way they live. But I know that you think and live like everyone else. You think you’re so great at everything, that you are perfect and no one can deny it.
You are so full of yourself, you think your the smartest person on earth. You prove it everyday by nitpicking about grammar and speaking Spanish. But honestly, it really takes a lot of stupidity to actually think that you can know everything. You don’t know a thing and it drives you mad.
You are now far away from me. I hope it stays that way. You are nothing but a venomous poison and I am done sucking you out of me. I refuse to apologize to you, I have nothing to feel sorry for. I am not the one who committed the crime, I am nothing but the victim of your spree. I almost allowed you to destroy my life. But like a phoenix, I always rise from my ashes stronger and wiser. I now no one thing that you will never know and that is that I am better than you in every way.
Retreat into your dark and damp cave, you horrible monster, and never return to this land again.